About Amanda

Hello! My name is Amanda and I want to see the world. This blog is a recording of my journeys through words, photos and jibberish. The road ahead of me is more open than I know what to do with and I'd love if you shared in my adventures.

Wait…what?

Somehow I’ve ended up back in school…in Pennsylvania. I’m learning to deal with winter, remembering what stationary living ensues, filling out job application after job application, and learning what it’s like to have younger siblings(though they aren’t mine).
Not exactly where I expected to be at this time but I’m adjusting.
I’m just waiting for the inevitable, the wanderlust will kick back in and I will have the overwhelming urge to leave again.
Though I’m almost right back to where I started, I have a new perspective. I am a traveler, I just haven’t found my method yet.
So, in the meantime, I’m going to attempt to finish my degree.
:heavy sigh: back to the grind

Roasting road leading somewhere unexpected

I roasted coffee beans using the Sonofresco 2lb roaster yesterday for the first time. It’s incredibly easy, anyone can do it.
I will not, however, be doing this for the long term. It’s definitely a bean money making endeavor but I’m afraid I’ve temporarily grown weary of life on the road. I need a bit of monotony to get my wanderlust back.
I’ve decided to go back to school. I’m going to finish my degree. It’s a little silly not to at this point. I know that I could wait but truth be told I want the comfort of being a poor college kid again. I’ll continue on this road for a while longer, at the very least until May, then I’ll make Pennsylvania my home. I won’t be going back to school until spring 2012 so that I can gain residency and not pay out of state tuition.
Though this puts me stationary for a while, I have no doubt that I will continue traveling for the rest of my life. I’m so anxious to go over an ocean…I’ve seen a lot of the eastern US, a sliver of the west and I’ve only crossed one international border.
Having a degree in anthropology will open a whole new world of opportunities to travel. Do some field work in various parts of the world…
Eventually, I want to teach. I’m not cut out for teaching small children or teenagers. I know that I’ll have to get a masters degree at the very least to teach on the college level but I’m looking forward to revisiting that path.
Living for a maximum of 6weeks at a time in one location is taking its toll on me. I feel as though the past year on the road has aged me 5years at least. I very much miss being mentally challenged also. Sure there’s lots of useless information in text books but its interesting to me.
I don’t know why I’m justifying my decision.
I often have to convince myself as much as the next person that I have some idea of what I’m talking about. Haha

Thinking aloud

It’s been incredibly challenging since I returned from Baton Rouge. Br has not changed much and life is comfortable and easy for me. It really messed with my head.
‘I should go back to school’
‘I hate this’
‘I want walls!’
I don’t really know what I want or how I feel, I’m just gonna take it one day at a time. Sometimes that’s all you can do.

I have mixed emotions about my current position on the globe.

School is cool

Walking around LSU today, the familiar foot paths, the giant oaks draping down to the ground, I felt a sense of nostalgia.
‘Maybe I could go back to school. Finish my degree, dig in the dirt a while…’
But I will not return to LSU. I loathe that place. They put all of their energy into athletics instead of academics.
I’ve really only got a year and a half, maybe two years left.
I feel like my brain is dormant as of late.
As of the past year truly.
I find that I am good at school, it’s easy, it’s a method.
And I enjoy learning.
And perhaps having a college degree wouldn’t be such a bad thing after all.
I love anthropology and history and geography.

But that means giving up the coffee roasting adventure, which I’m quite alright with. I don’t know, I always get this awful sinking feeling in my gut when I think about starting a coffee roasting business. And on the road none the less. Sure it’s eventually profitable but it’s not what I want to do.
I want to see and study the world and the people who live in it.
I’m more interested in the daily interactions between coffee planters and how their work affects their families than I am about buying that coffee, roasting it and selling to the masses to make a buck.
I still believe that knowledge for the sake of knowledge is something worth seeking. It may be impractical to pay for school for four years to get a degree which doesn’t necessarily qualify you for an outstanding paying job. But it brings me forward.

these thoughts keep me up at night

I have a dream of traveling the world. My biggest fear is that I’m going to get stuck into something that I can’t escape and it’s going to force me to live my life stationary.
I’m supposed to start a coffee roasting business. It’s such an easy profitable thing for the world in which I live currently. Perhaps one day it will allow me to have the financial means of traveling but I am impatient. I have the itch again, the wanderlust is beckoning.
I’m sure this has something to do with being back in the place that I tried so desperately to leave behind.

I could just leave. I could just walk away from all of this and head in a new direction. Again I’m unsure of how to go about doing this. I look at jobs online, seasonal things but I don’t have the means to make the jump.

Truth be told, I’m rather enjoying my life as a rennie. I just don’t want to do the same circuit of festivals forever.

I’m only 21. I have time right??